These few days, I have been thinking so much. So much about the future. it is so worrying. and then, I start to miss my gf..=( how to express such a feeling of loneliness all of a sudden. How i wish I could hug her, hold her hands. We have been apart for 7 months coming to 10 months...I wonder what has happened to her. I hope she would still be the girl I love. Missing her so much.

I was so foolish in the past to argue with her so often over small little things. Why did I do that. Only when im  studying overseas that I understand her importance to cherish her so much more. Oh god I miss her so much. I didnt felt so much of missing her when I left Singapore for Australia. What does the future hold? I hope it is a happy ending for us....

I cant wait to go back to sg to meet with my gf. Apart from that, is there anything to go back for? I am only a lonely soul. Am I meant to live all alone in life?

Why am I feelings so shitty, why why why....haiz...So many wonders, so many questions, but could we answer to all those feelings. I must be faithful. I must correct all my mistakes.

Everytime I feel stressed or emotional, I would go for a jog in the gym now...but would it be short lived. I wish so much so often that I could depart from this world...Is there really something to live for apart from my gf...What am I thinking...

School work is crashing down, and I am feeling more and more lethargic...please help me.....please let me end my misery...This is the path I chose. I love it, but is it worth it afterall??